Half

I heard today that they will be letting 50% of us go. I realize as I write this that the term “letting go” is much nicer than what they are really doing. We are being fired. Half of us. We will not be offered a position next school year. This during some of the worst financial times this country has ever gone through. When so many can not pay rent, or buy groceries, or pay for medical care, this is how they show us the recognize our commitment and dedication.

Which half will they choose? What age range will they keep? What gender? Will seniority count? Will they only keep the quiet ones because they do not complain? Or will it be the ones who make noise because they show bravery? Is it the ones who stay late and come early? Or will it be the ones who live by the clock so as not to cost them any more money? Will it be the ones who volunteer or the ones who do not? If you are here all the time will it show your dedication, or will it show your desperation? Will it be the ones they assume have money in the bank? Or the ones who are desperate because they will take any job that comes along?

I am sure to be among them, no doubt. I have had a few bad days, and take sick days, so I would imagine they want me gone. I ask difficult questions. I have cried a time or two at work. Most here have. I was late once, have to leave early to get to Dr’s. appointments. I ask for equal treatment, to which I am told equal is not always fair. I say I understand and keep my head down and my mouth shut. I express concerns and get treated as trouble maker, so I offer help and ask for nothing and keep coming to work.

What about the people that work here full time, and still can not afford rent? What about the people that are full time and can not afford groceries or insurance? What about the ones who come sick because they can not afford the dock in pay if they call in?

How do you choose which half matter and which does not?

How do you look in the mirror after deciding that?

That is the real question.

Half.