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I knew

Looking back, I always knew. There was just no way it could not be true. I saw the way they looked at him. The skinny blonde particularly. She had her hands clasped expectantly under her chin, with a smile from ear to ear and light in her eyes; a light that could be seen evenContinue reading “I knew”

So Begins the End

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I would like to say that I woke up that day feeling off. I would like to say that my anxiety was worse that day than normal. I would like to say I felt wrong. But honestly I had been so anxious for so long I could…

Ritual

The day felt different. The dark crept up on us much quicker than we were used to, but it was most welcome. This day had always been my favorite, the crisp air, the woodsmoke, the gracefully dying leaves. They all work together in both seen and unseen ways to bring about the change, or perhapsContinue reading “Ritual”

Chronic

At first you think you have caught the flu, and maybe you did. The symptoms ebb and flow, but the exhaustion stays. Then new symptoms pop up, and the original deep muscle and joint pain has gone nowhere. You just feel wrong somehow, like something else has gotten ahold of your body. You wonder ifContinue reading “Chronic”

So Begins the End

I would like to say that I woke up that day feeling off. I would like to say that my anxiety was worse that day than normal. I would like to say I felt wrong. But honestly I had been so anxious for so long I could not have felt too much worse, or soContinue reading “So Begins the End”

Teacher

I have been in the classroom off and on, mostly on for the past 20+ years. I have taught everything from early childhood to high school and most grades and subjects in between. So many things have changed from when I first started, and not for the better. The standards that we are held toContinue reading “Teacher”

Whispered Belonging

My classrooms have always been my sacred space. I loved school as it was an oasis for all that was wrong at home. This day was special though. Paper decorations from Woolworth’s covered the walls and door. Witches with crooked noses, vampires with mouths wide open waiting for the unsuspecting, mummies with arms outstretched alwaysContinue reading “Whispered Belonging”

Red Letter

I know what they think of me. I have heard the words second hand dripping a venomous judgement that they have no right to. I know what I have done, and how my stature has grown weak and dingy, despite the suffering heaped upon me. I know how you see me. I hear you callContinue reading “Red Letter”

Split

While the circumstances are blurry, after all it’s been 40 years or more, the split itself is still crystal clear. This memory has been quietly sitting in the still corners, watching, waiting to remind me that it was real. I did not make it up. It was not a fabrication. This time the yelling wasContinue reading “Split”