So Begins the End

I would like to say that I woke up that day feeling off. I would like to say that my anxiety was worse that day than normal. I would like to say I felt wrong. But honestly I had been so anxious for so long I could not have felt too much worse, or so I thought. Living with an addict makes you brace yourself for everything, fear everything, try and control everything and every reaction. I do this so the hurt that will come to you can be somehow mitigated. I think we fool ourselves into thinking we can control certain circumstances when in this situation, because it is completely unbearable to not be able to cope, even when it’s not real.

So began that day, like so many others. A pit in my stomach and a lump in my throat. I tried to talk myself out of a…